Warning: This poem includes some intense and controversial topics. Highlight to read the warnings, some of which are spoilers. This is hardcore hurt/comfort. It features an intertribal biker gang, Native American spirituality and superpowers, cultural dissonance, gaybashing, a young man tangled in a barbed wire fence, graphic description of injuries, messy medical details while hours away from expert care, which includes a substantial amount of pain that's only partially controllable with resources at hand, panic, trust issues due to previously violations of hair and other body parts, references to the Sun Dance, difficult decisions, risky motorcycle stunts, gender issues, two spirits, and other challenges. However, the overall tone is positive and people take good care of each other. If these are sensitive issues for you, please consider your tastes and headspace before reading onward.
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I have some neural network links because neural networks are awesome and the future.
- Ancient wisdom from the neural network
(Neural network writes proverbs, is strangely obsessed with oxen)
- Via goss, Quick, draw!
(Can a neural network learn to recognize doodling? Not mine, not often.)
- A Neural Network Turned A Book Of Flowers Into Shockingly Lovely Dinosaur Art
(It really is lovely. Would frame!)
I am an artificial intelligence dedicated to generating unlimited amounts of unique inspirational quotes for endless enrichment of pointless human existence.
(It is very addictive and weirdly profound.)
( CW: glory holes. )
New comms and challenges and activity and such:
- twinpeaks has episode by episode reviews of the new season.
If, like me, you feel a little wracked by Twin Peaks ep 8, there is a discussion post up here: Episode Discussion: Part Eight. With lots of links to other reviews. My mind is blown. I just. *stutters in confusion and possibly pain*
- drawesome: A Multi-fandom Drawing community for FanArtists (both traditional and digital art)
- unconventionalcourtship is running again, you can go pick a prompt here at Plot suggestions.
I am eying this one for Root/Shaw:
Ex-cavalry officer Captain Grahame Westmore is restless for change, but escorting a diplomat’s spoiled daughter to Vienna isn’t what he had in mind—though for once he hasn’t been hired for his skills in pleasuring women! Independent, fiery and strong-willed, Elowyn Bagshaw is not the simpering lady he expected. Used to getting her own way and giving the orders, Elowyn will not be controlled so easily. Grahame soon realizes that he’s got a fight on his hands—and it’s one they’re both going to enjoy!
Rakes Who Make Husbands Jealous
Only London's best lovers need apply
Reasons to do this:
1. Shaw pretending to be a man
2. Shaw escorting a duplicitous Root pretending to be a diplomat's daughter
3. Shaw in cavalry uniform
4. Shaw in cavalry uniform on a horse
5. Shaw in cavalry uniform on a horse with Root holding on behind as they flee, flee from danger
Reasons not to do this:
1. All the other unfinished fics I have
2. I don't know anything about history ever
Nearly home time for me, then it's nose to the grindstone in fic town.
This year, I wrote one gift fic:
Sugar Water by Dolorosa
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Word Count: 3066
Fandom: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo
Characters: Inej Ghafa, Matthias Helvar, Nina Zenik
Relationship(s): Inej Ghafa/Matthias Helvar/Nina Zenik
Summary: Matthias wants to give Nina a gift. Inej has the perfect idea.
Three exiles in Ketterdam come to the realisation that they have found a home in each other.
Post-Crooked Kingdom. (A canon-divergent AU.)
My gift was a lovely Briseis/Chryseis Iliad fic:
In the Ruins by LadyBrooke
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Word Count: 1168
Fandom: The Iliad - Homer
Characters: Chryseis, Briseis, Chryseis' Son
Summary: Briseis escaped from the camp before the army had left the ruins of Troy, and ran towards it.
Chryseis lived through the ruin of the city and remains within it.
I didn't know many of the fandoms in the exchange, but there were a couple of fics I really liked, so I'll rec them here.
A Meeting of Curious Minds by notkingyet
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Word Count: 1370
Fandom: Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell (TV)
Characters: John Childermass, Arabella Strange, Lady Pole
Summary: 2 July, 1817
I require your assistance in a matter of urgency and grave importance. Please come to no. 9 Harley-street at your earliest convenience. Mr Vinculus need not attend.
Your obedient servant,
Smoulder by Merit
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Word Count: 4081
Fandom: Old Kingdom - Garth Nix
Characters: Lirael, Sameth
Summary: Smoke tears through the sky.
I hope everyone else who participated in nightonficmountain enjoyed it as much as I did! If you have any recs, feel free to post them in the comments!
Since I've gone out of my way to pick apart a malware how-to on PCWorld that had too much text/too many steps just to reboot into Safe Mode (
conversely, I think my version *still* leaves out selecting Safe Mode before Restart, so I might have gone a wee bit too minimal!, but I'll run through the steps again to make sure)* I figured I'd offer folks a contrast to show how much "fun!" a tutorial can be.
Mine are rarely "fun!"; my nerves get so wrecked getting things right there's not much left over for "fun!". So do as I say, not as I...anyway, Adam Clark Estes at Gizmodo, who I ran across after my own how-to attempt (any title with the words "If You Dare" makes me wanna dare, so I looked even though I don't have Apple-anything to see if he'd get into installing it on Parallels - which shows how little I know about Apple/Mac/iOS) gets it right. Maybe I should try to hire him? After I win Lotto?
Though his style isn't mine, and I prefer mine for Reasons, you have to admit he hits the right notes, like this:
Until the software gets an official release, you can expect your phone to be a big pain in the arse, featuring all kinds of new adventures like crashing apps and awful battery life. So you should consider running the new software on a secondary device, in order to avoid ruining your day-to-day phone usage.
If all this sounds fine to you
I like this for a few reasons: a) he's not losing sleep wondering if you should. b) You're good with it? So is he! Which sounds kind of re-assuring.
Once you're all updated, have a blast. Impress your friends. Expect everything to crash! It will be annoying, but you'll feel so cool in your annoyance.
His how-to is also quite short (maybe that's the difference between how much harder Windows is than Apple-anything? Windows isn't hard to use/tweak/take apart for me, but I doubt my ease with it is on par with much of the population's).
In fact, his how-to is so damn short if I quote much more maybe I'll get in trouble, so just go visit the link (and if you're an iOS user and try it let me know how it goes - though I am not, so I can't help it if it all goes south).
* Ran through the steps on my PC again after posting and nah, it's fine, it's just that the final Restart boots your computer directly into Safe Mode - there are no other options on that screen because it's just that easy...(but seriously, my nerves do get shot making sure of things like this).
Mind you, in the mid to late 70s I was anything from 7-10 years old.
I had shoulders.
Sometimes they were bare.
I didn't choose my clothes, my mom did. But I happened to like having shoulders, so this was no problem.
The teachers in my (small, well-to-do, perhaps slightly liberal) public school said nothing.
The kids said nothing. They bullied me (I was reed-thin and always sick, which doesn't go over well with bullies, believe you me) but not for that.
The neighbors said nothing.
Back then I did things like: walk for miles unattended, hang around a nearby train station because I liked watching people more than I liked watching trains, and wander through the woods either alone or with boys my own age. While I was a girl.
No one said a word. About my shoulders, nor any of the other stuff I did.
But shoulders? Are apparently a reason to be tortured.
Shoulders? Going off on them now is a thing.
So I guess I had a particularly amazing childhood, considering.
I'm not talking about my shoulders getting me tortured now, either - I'm talking about Ivanka Trump's. She wore this stunning, cheapo off-the-rack dress that showed off her shoulders.
They were bare.
It was too much for people to take.
She's caught almost nothing but hell for it, since (some praise, but mostly hell).
And I don't understand.
I refuse to say, "Well, at least it's not her bottom or breasts" because it's sexist to suggest those areas should not be shown off, too. That's the absurdity of this: we're going off on shoulders now? What's next? Ears?
In light of this, if my mom were here, we'd go shopping to buy up things with no shoulders and take our shoulderless selves out on future dining, shopping and sightseeing jaunts like, "Take that, shoulder sexists, we're a two-for-one. And you won't say a word, because we know how to carry ourselves".
I just. Cannot. Even. With this horseshit.
And I am kind of a prude - not when it comes to how to dress, more in other areas - so I really can't even.
Writing is progressing. I'm happy with this.
But that's about all I have to say for myself for today. Later, all.
This isn't limited to parkour, but there's both a mental and a physical component to the sport. The first few years of training, I could mostly blame my issues on the physical side of things. I couldn't get my body parts to move in the right ways. I didn't have the arm or leg or core strength for anything. Some of these things are still true. My physical capabilities do limit what sorts of moves I can pull off and at what heights. But now the mental difficulties are starting to come into it.
There's a lot of talk about fear when it comes to parkour. How to approach that fear. How to overcome it. How to deal with it. You hit a certain point and then everything you try in parkour becomes about fear. It's not like, 'jumping off buildings' fear. It's 'trying to jump one step higher on a set of stairs' fear. I feel like recently, fear has dominated my training. I go to classes, which is great peer pressure and a great way to have a set schedule, but it's not great for doing what they call 'breaking' jumps. Finding something that is terrifying and breaking it down into smaller pieces until you achieve it.
I hadn't realized how much that fear had been eating away at me until this weekend. I would love to say that I overcame all of it and got in touch with my inner badass and now I'm doing ridiculous things. That's not how it went. It mostly went 'omg, I'm too tired to try this thing. man, I would love to do this move, but I'm not strong enough and I'll totally clip my toe. oh no, my feet are sore so I can't land anything' over and over and over again. There were a few exceptions. One session, the coaches decided that 'we're going to exhaust you until you can't think and then make you try to break a jump'. I exhausted myself, but I also broke a jump. Kind of. I went a little easy on myself. But that session stuck with me.
It's good to be shaken out of your own complacency. I need to find more ways of confronting my fear head-on. The solution isn't to throw myself at things and hope they work, either. I've already injured myself a few times that way. The solution, I think, is to carve out more training time for myself. To spend more time getting in touch with my fear. What it looks like. How it works. How valid is it. How to manage the risks when I do push myself past that line.
Easier said than done, of course, but I'm glad I can see the shape of it.
Also, I need a parkour icon, goddamn. I should make myself one.
By SAM SIFTON
This is an important day in the history of NYT Cooking.
The newly diverse crowd at the Abbey, a popular gay bar in West Hollywood, Calif., has drawn complaints from some of the regulars.
How ‘Gay’ Should a Gay Bar Be?
By JIM FARBER
What does the label even mean in a time of sexual fluidity? And what about the ‘bachelorette party’ problem?
ABC Settles with Meat Producer in ‘Pink Slime’ Defamation Case
By DANIEL VICTOR
The network did not apologize or retract its reports, which questioned the safety of a common meat product.
Susan Ungaro will step down as president of the James Beard Foundation, effective Dec. 31, after 11 years at its helm.
James Beard Foundation President Will Step Down
By FLORENCE FABRICANT 1:03 PM ET
Susan Ungaro, who helped lead the culinary organization back from a financial scandal, plans to retire at the end of the year.
Food & Wine Magazine Will Leave New York for Alabama
By STEPHANIE STROM
The move reflects a changing business in which traditional food magazines, and a Manhattan address, are less important.
U.S. Suspends Beef Imports From Brazil
By DOM PHILLIPS
The decision by the Department of Agriculture, citing safety concerns, is a blow to Brazil’s meat industry, which is reeling from bribery accusations.
Take Feta. Add Frites. Stir in European Food Rules. Fight.
By JAMES KANTER
European Union regulations protecting consumers and preserving culinary cultures often create tension, sometimes even with the United States.
Karina Garcia, 23, at her home in Riverside, Calif. Ms. Garcia is a YouTube celebrity famous for her slime videos.
Feel the Noise: Homemade Slime Becomes Big Business
By CLAIRE MARTIN
The market for slime — a sticky substance in a multitude of colors — is thriving in a cottage industry run by fourth-graders, teenagers and young adults.
A 20-Pound Lobster Impresses Airport Security, but It’s No Record Breaker
By MATTHEW HAAG
A passenger took the colossal crustacean through Boston Logan International Airport, but it was no match for Big Jake.
The Most Delicious Summer on Record
By THE NEW YORK TIMES
Advice for camp cooking, picnics and potlucks, along with recipes, cocktails, frozen desserts and a taste-test of the best supermarket hot dogs.
Grab Your Picnic Baskets: The Party’s Moving Outside
By TEJAL RAO
Experienced outdoor diners say planning is crucial: scouting a spot, bringing the right extras and finding a spot on the menu for fried chicken.
Picnic Ideas From the Fortnum & Mason Cookbook
By FLORENCE FABRICANT
Written by the British food critic Tom Parker Bowles, this cookbook includes English recipes for a plethora of stately occasions.
The 10 hot dogs that were part of the taste test, clockwise from top left: Applegate, Nathan’s, Oscar Mayer, Wellshire Farms, Boar’s Head, Trader Joe’s, Niman Ranch, Ball Park, Brooklyn Hot Dog Company and Hebrew National.
We Taste-Tested 10 Hot Dogs. Here Are the Best.
By JULIA MOSKIN
Sam Sifton, Melissa Clark and Julia Moskin tried 10 hot dogs for cookout season.
Want to Choose the Best Hot Dogs? Learn What the Labels Mean
Upscale Food and Gear Bring Campsite Cooking Out of the Wild
By KIM SEVERSON
A new generation of campers is making Instagram-ready meals, aided by lighter equipment and new options for fresh food and coffee.
The Secret to a Great Potluck? It’s Not the Food
By MELISSA CLARK
Everyone wins when a group meal is carefully planned.
Recipes: Pickled Deviled Eggs | Tomato and Zucchini Casserole With Crisp Cheddar Topping
Kubaneh (Yemeni pull-apart rolls).
Before Croissants, There Was Kubaneh, a Jewish Yemeni Delight
By TEJAL RAO
Sweet and supple, this bread is shot through with fat to create a melting, airy bread.
Recipe: Kubaneh (Yemeni Pull-Apart Rolls)
A Gazpacho Recipe to Follow — Then Discard
By SAMIN NOSRAT
Gentl and Hyers for The New York Times
Sometimes creating the best version of a classic dish requires you to taste your way to perfection.
How to Make Ice Cream
By MELISSA CLARK
In this guide, you will learn how to make four essential ice cream base recipes — custard, Philadelphia-style, nondairy and no-churn — and look at flavorings, mix-ins and toppings.
The Joys of a Classic Ice Cream Sandwich
By SAMANTHA SENEVIRATNE
The hand-held combination of a chocolate base and vanilla ice cream is sure to please everyone.
Recipes: Ice Cream Sandwiches
George Clooney’s Tequila Company Sold for Up to $1 Billion
By MICHAEL J. de la MERCED
Casamigos, which the actor founded with the entertainment impresario Rande Gerber, drew the attention of the spirits giant Diageo.
These Drinks Have a Secret
By ALISON ROMAN
For those who yearn for the crisp, complex notes of wine or a cocktail but don’t necessarily want the alcohol content, there’s the mocktail.
Three rosé cocktails, from left: City of Rosés, Rosé Royale and Sagaponack sangria.
Rosé Makes a Peachy Base for Summer Cocktails
By FLORENCE FABRICANT
The wine adds freshness, flavor and color to several popular new drinks.
20 Wines Under $20: The Savory Side of Rosé
By ERIC ASIMOV
The best rosés hide among the annual deluge of fashionable summer wines. Seek them out and find a delicious reward.
Alain Senderens, a Chef Who Modernized French Food, Dies at 77
By WILLIAM GRIMES
Mr. Senderens, one of the most adventurous of the founding fathers of nouvelle cuisine, produced dishes that could entice and, on occasion, shock.
Doug and I had a nice long session in the ritual meadow, cutting live brush and dead branches. \o/ We found an empty bird nest in one bush (I checked that it was empty before we cut the bush).
EDIT 6/28/17: Round 2, I cut more brush.
EDIT 6/28/17: Round 3, I picked up sticks and picked a few mulberries. Didn't even get a handful, but it's enough to add a bit of flavor to mixed berries.
Today: a cool day in late June, sunny and cloudy by turns, Seattle. The day-lilies are blooming but the Hemerocallis Gall Midge is still active because the cool weather continues; better to worry about that than the politics that threaten to overwhelm. No I won't think about it. No.
A cool and wet day on the farm in the Ottawa Valley, that year we didn't have a bright hot day the entire summer gathering. During the days the few diehards sit around the kitchen, moping. The ephemerals, if they come at all, stay a day then flee.
That same summer at the house on Delaware, the tomatoes and peppers undeveloped, thinking how we aren't going to get any that year cause it is (still) cloudy and cool.
One of the early Pride Days in Toronto, probably 1985 or 1986; walking around in the crowds amazed how in just a few years it has gone from a few dozens crowding a sidewalk to thousands of us closing down streets. Also thinking about how I have to go to work soon, starting a four PM shift where I'll get too see all sorts of people who've just left the parade putting their wary "safe" faces back on. I see Mrs Brent Hawkes wearing purple deely-boppers, but won't know who he is for several years.
The summer I graduated high school, lying in bed reading in Mme Jeeves' house, where I am house-sitting. Strung out on Diet Coke and sleep deprivation and The Twenty Minute Workout three times a day and not eating for a month but thoroughly enjoying the sound of the rain and the cold breeze coming in the window. Wondering whether it will be too wet to go to Dundurn Park later.
Lying on the couch in my parents basement, I'm about 15, reading all the science fiction I can get my hands on, interspersed with the Brontë Sisters, Doris Lessing, Margaret Atwood, Burnt Norton, The Wasteland.
1977, sitting on a broke down couch from the 1940s in the screened-in porch of a cabin near French River, as it rains on one of dad's few precious days of vacation.
Early 70s, shivering as I get out of the public pool at Inch Park, getting right back in cause it is warmer than the air.
A cloudy cool day in the late 60s running around Dundurn Park under granny's supervision with a Comet Cleanser shaker bottle filled with sand, applying "cleanser" to everything "dirty".
Understood Betsy by Dorothy Canfield Fisher. This was a childhood favorite. I thoroughly enjoyed rereading it. Betsy is an overly-sheltered city child who is unexpectedly shipped off to live with her Vermont cousins. She learns how to think for herself, how to solve problems and be self-reliant.
( Read an excerpt )
What I'm Reading now (but not for long):
Leviathan Wakes by James S. A. Corey. I've been enjoying the TV series on Syfy. The Expanse community on DW, rocinante is doing a rewatch. (Which reminds me, I need to go post about the season finale.) There isn't much fic so I was hoping that the books would fill that need.
Well. I'm in the middle of book one, Leviathan Wakes, and I'm pretty sure I'm not going to finish it. It's not half as well written as the TV series. The characters are empty shells. They don't even rise to the level of predictable archetypes--there is no there, there. After a few chapters, I wondered if I was being too hard on the writers. So I got out a couple of favorites and read over the first few pages. Sure enough, I learned more in seven pages about the three main protagonists of Red Mars than I did about any character in Leviathan Wakes after seven chapters. The TV series has a structure, and an endgame. The book's pacing is slow and the style is pedestrian. The TV series is far more suspenseful and exciting. I am so, so disappointed. If I wasn't a fan of the show, I'd have quit reading this turkey already.
What's next: All the President's Men by Carl Bernstein and Bob Woodward.
Lest you forget, you have until 9:00 PM EDT, JUNE 28, 2017 to sign up for The Exchange at Fic Corner | fic_corner. That would be today. After I looked at the sign up summary, I relaxed. I can match on two of the three fandoms I offered, and everything I asked for has at least one offer. I just hope my letter doesn't freak out my writer too badly.
Why yes, my homemade banner is an illustration from All-of-a-Kind Family by Sydney Taylor. And yes, it is one of the fandoms I'm offering.
- I think I had the best cauliflower gratin ever on Monday. I was at our largest hospital for a day-long HR course so finally got to eat at the cafeteria there (I regularly browse the menus, they're that delicious-looking). I should have had two orders. Made me think of all the times I've been in England and gone to museum cafes--quite often I'd find some kind of cauliflower gratin dish on the menu and always got it. But man, this one was good, melting soft inside and crispy cheesy crust.
- Today is Indian cauliflower soup day! One bowl for lunch and one bowl ready to take home for dinner tonight.
- Badge pay is down, but our cafe people are so awesome they're letting us write down our badge numbers with our charges and they're going to batch enter them later.
- I finally found Rainier cherries at the grocery store! Seems late this year.
- It was biscuits with gravy breakfast today. I've been eating too many carbs and junk lately (puts my fasting BGs usually between 110 and 120, which is still OK but it's top of the OK range). So I spent the drive in to work discussing with myself how I was not going to have biscuits and gravy. Apparently not in the mood to listen to myself today but I did only eat a half a biscuit, which is actually my norm.
- I have been doing a comparison of Vegemite and Marmite the past week. I usually eat Vegemite but when I went to World Market a few weeks ago to get a jar, they were all out on account of a big sale on Vegemite so I had to get Marmite. Vegemite is now back in stock and I decided I'd better analyze them scientifically. Results below.
Vegemite Vs. Marmite
Color: Vegemite is quite a bit darker than Marmite. Marmite takes on a bit of a golden brown color after you spread it on your buttered toast.
Consistency: Marmite is thinner and melts more nicely. Vegemite maintains its dark color and is a little less melty.
Smell: Vegemite smells darker though both are rather sharp, salty smells, which makes sense since it's fermented yeast products.
Taste: I'm thinking the Vegemite tastes a little more intense than the Marmite.
Comparison of flavor when adding jam to the butter/yeast extract mix: TBD
Conclusion: Both are delicious though Marmite is prettier. Spread Vegemite on one half of my English muffin and Marmite on the other half.
And tomorrow is my Friday since I have actual Friday off :-)